what if?

Have u ever felt na wen ur wd a long tym fren na kayo lng dalawa dn all of a sudden, without ur control, ur mind starts asking u…what f? all along…kayo pala?...weird pero dats wat hapend to me one fateful day…

Kc I have a fren..wer not dt close pro we belong to d same crowd kya evrytime na may “gimik” kasama kami…

On one of our laag-laag days…den kmi na lng 2 naiwan…

Dun nag chika2x…it was not at all romantic (of kors no, we’re not dt typ)..kya lng I’d say it was more of “real” or “intimate” (not in a romantic way)…kc we’re talking about our past…our present…n our future…

in fairness no? for d record I never tot na we’d be having dt typ of convos, masyadong serious (If u know wt I mean)…

Then wen I ws deeply pondering kung ano ng nangyari sa buhay ko til I’ve come to d point na nakatunganga na lng, yung titingin ka na lang sa malayo n js savoring each moment e bigla ko na lng narinig ang sarili ko na nagtatanong…wat f? baka lng? Sya pala ang magiging…my god! I cnt even say d word..i mean ang magiging “u know” ko (alam nyo na yun)…at napa isip ako…not bad ha, I mean, we have a lot of things in common, we knew each other since batibot days, we have d same frens, same acquaintances n ang rami pang same…I mean I’ve known him na..not dt grabe pero at least I’ve known him na nga den he’s not bad looking nmn n wenever he’s around I feel comfortable, I feel safe, it’s like, I’m in good hands wd metrobank char joke hehe…u know d feeling?..basta kana…den mkachika ko kung unsa ako gusto ichika…can u feel me?...pero on d second thought, hello??? Hehehe...he’s not my type...tsaka la tlaga akong ma feel na kilig moments din e…lam mo yun? Der’s no chemistry… no electrifying sensation…Yun lang ang nafifeel ko…m comfortable, period…

Pero now dt I’ve assessed dt “thinking” of mine…na-isip ko…maybe I ws js thinking too much…pero still, I can't erase d fact that I’ve welcome the “idea” (shucks)…kaya agen, I heard myself asking…of all d possibilities in d world…what if?...baka lang?...