Game ka pa ba?
So what now? May na..d na talaga papa-awat…patanda na tayo ng patanda…not that my birthday falls on May…it’s just that, June is fast approaching, enrollment is now going on and soon classes starts…I can almost hear you say “so what?”
Yeah right, “so what?”…I’m no longer a student anyway…but that’s the point...I’m already a career woman (ehem!)…and being so, makes me wonder if this is the career that I wanna do for the rest of my life…I have no complains with my working environment, truth is, I’m enjoyin’ it, maybe because I love my “ka-lab”…in fact, I guess they are the reasons why until now, I’m not leaving my work and just forget about my minimum wage salary but maximum work load (which reminds me, labor day pala ngayon)…but with regards to my “work” per se, that…I have complainsss.
When I was still in college, my path was crystal clear…after I graduate, I’d take the board exam then I’ll take proper med to be a doctor “someday”...but when I reviewed for this exam that would give you the license to work in the “green lands” I have classmates who somehow inspired me to go abroad and stop fantasizing about being a doctor “someday”…and that’s why I found myself working in a hospital to gain “experience” (one hell of experience I might say hehehe)…
But right now, after over a year of gaining “experience”…I’m having second thoughts (more like, bazillion thoughts) …it’s like I’m in a middle of a crossroad…coz until now, I can’t see a clear pathway on how to get myself to work abroad, it’s like I’m just wasting my time gaining this “experience”…I’ve asked myself questions:
- Are there really opportunities for med techs there?
- Would I find happiness if I earn dollars?
- Is working abroad the reason why God put me here in this world?
- Am I ready to face my life as a student again or just loving the idea of quitting “work”?
- Am I willing to give up my happy-go-lucky state of life right now?
- If I’d be a doctor “someday” would I be serving God’s purpose and be truly fulfilled?
I still can’t find answers to these questions, clueless (bat d ba pwedeng sagutin ako ni lord ng live)…Haaay, “why not take proper med?”...if only I did, I’d be a doctor not far from now…God, am I in deep shit? Makes me think that life’s no longer a game no more ...
Can I phone a friend …Fifty-fifty… Ask the audience?
Yeah right, “so what?”…I’m no longer a student anyway…but that’s the point...I’m already a career woman (ehem!)…and being so, makes me wonder if this is the career that I wanna do for the rest of my life…I have no complains with my working environment, truth is, I’m enjoyin’ it, maybe because I love my “ka-lab”…in fact, I guess they are the reasons why until now, I’m not leaving my work and just forget about my minimum wage salary but maximum work load (which reminds me, labor day pala ngayon)…but with regards to my “work” per se, that…I have complainsss.
When I was still in college, my path was crystal clear…after I graduate, I’d take the board exam then I’ll take proper med to be a doctor “someday”...but when I reviewed for this exam that would give you the license to work in the “green lands” I have classmates who somehow inspired me to go abroad and stop fantasizing about being a doctor “someday”…and that’s why I found myself working in a hospital to gain “experience” (one hell of experience I might say hehehe)…
But right now, after over a year of gaining “experience”…I’m having second thoughts (more like, bazillion thoughts) …it’s like I’m in a middle of a crossroad…coz until now, I can’t see a clear pathway on how to get myself to work abroad, it’s like I’m just wasting my time gaining this “experience”…I’ve asked myself questions:
- Are there really opportunities for med techs there?
- Would I find happiness if I earn dollars?
- Is working abroad the reason why God put me here in this world?
- Am I ready to face my life as a student again or just loving the idea of quitting “work”?
- Am I willing to give up my happy-go-lucky state of life right now?
- If I’d be a doctor “someday” would I be serving God’s purpose and be truly fulfilled?
I still can’t find answers to these questions, clueless (bat d ba pwedeng sagutin ako ni lord ng live)…Haaay, “why not take proper med?”...if only I did, I’d be a doctor not far from now…God, am I in deep shit? Makes me think that life’s no longer a game no more ...
Can I phone a friend …Fifty-fifty… Ask the audience?
posted by LittLe at 12:22 PM
1 Comments:
often times me make plans on our own not thinking God has better plans for us. u can continue wid wat u want wid ur life or u can ask and w8 for God's plan for u.
its always nice to work if ur hapi wid wat ur doing and not jst d environment. wen u put urself on to it u wil never grow weary & it'll reflect to the things u do. dat way ur patients will not say "marunong ka ba?!..baka pagpraktisan mo lang ako". rather dey wil see dat enthusiasm in u & d willingness to serve.
lastly, money isnt everything in this world. yes, it can bring happines but only temporal. the best things in life are free my dear. u can go work abroad and have lots of $ but u can opt to stay here & serve ur fellowmen wid gladness in ur heart...
theres no "Can I phone a friend …Fifty-fifty… Ask the audience?". its ur choice...
6:33 PM, May 04, 2005
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